i want to make livejournal. im sick of blogger.

this feels really old and everyth.

i want it afresh.

teach me to make one lj, someone?

my right hand is bigger than my left hand,

the same bangle cant fit both ):

fri = butterfac

yes i almost didnt get in. long story

my arms are aching cause i went kayaking today.

michael had a really awesome cool dance performance at school today.

sorry we were late ):

wish i could dance like them too. that strength/force/gentleness in every move

that flexibility and expression.

his school is totally like american highschool, lockers next to class rooms.

duh -.- no wonder its SAS.

anw this is my awesome weekend, im really enjoying it. i love it

pictures soon!

xoxo peace out

please dont fall apart, :/

pictures will be up very soon, im lazy to upload them as usual. tehee.

anyway october has been a busy month, but ill be even busier in the upcoming months. events, schedules planned far ahead. my next 2 saturdays have already been booked! weekly routines just make me feel so drained and i need a break really. church musical practices frisbee church again, camps, meetups family time, parties, school&projs, winter league maybe. so much things and commitments to account for in so little time, i can feel the fatigueness im about to face and that feeling of just wanting time to stop. 24hours for urban-action-hectic-fast-moving-pace-society and civilisation is definitely not enough. i think im trying to juggle and cope and currently doing a pretty good job, cept for the fact that im always tired! ):

my lack of sleep and rest and eaten into me that ive gotten so used to sleeping near 3 everyday. this is bad. i feel like im going to grow old very quickly without my beauty sleep ): its been raining for the past few days and sometimes it does make me feel better.

so, i met amer today after school to chill out at town pretty late nearing 8 but we chilled talked ate, shopped, it was fun. like we've all grown up so much more than just those kids that use to know nothing but play in the school bus and those childish big quarrels we had. its like just a meetup that brought hearts closer again and i like this feeling. i know shes there for me :D

thank God class is at 1 tmw ends at 4 hopefully i wont be late! soooo tooodles [:

xoxo.

oh & lastly to my team,

nyp ultimate go through, thick and thin,

have fun and do tough trg's tgt @ nyp swim meet (:

always encouraging & trusting

nyp ultimate girls, bonding outings :/

P.S. TRY TO SPOT ME! HEH

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freaking tired. i laid in bed at 245 but couldnt sleep toss for 40 mins.

decided to text kenneth & he called me.

talked for almost an hour and a half in think till 5?

then woke before 11 and dad sent me home.

i am so drained, thinking of all excuses to skip it but i know i have to go.

im tempted to lie on my bed which looks so comfortable.

today is an impt trg cause its games.

help me to train in game awareness cause i suck at it.

i know that this weekend will be a good one.

all the girly stuff to beautify myself.

nails hair face yes,

hang on deanna lim. God will help me.

i just feel like blogging since my new skin look so nice! LOL :X

i was looking at my posts in 2006,

& i really cannot believe the way i typed was like S-H-I-T, srsly.

embarassing but its memories i guess :/

i also realised those previous posts are lacking in pictures!

it kind of made me feel like digging out some old pictures from last year

starting from people i missed, things i did, and used to do,

i didnt manage to get the really OLD ONES cause its at the other computer

ill prolly do it at the same w time when im looking at those pics (:

this is joy: freaking miss her, used to be closer to her, chillin at her crib aye

and disturbing job. i got her older pics!

but not here ):

this is my ahlian CARISSA CHEE!

havent seen her at all since O's,

until we bumped at vivo the other day :/

chill out soon girl

my tuts NR0920 camwhore in lects hehehe (:

awesome people i miss!

i miss playing pool w cell peeps,

during O's holiday when we had so much time this was our weekly routine

job and i would fight till the end srsly.

this is prove, even right before O's the first paper chem,

STILL at pool and i rmb on my birthday i had that chem paper ):

when i havent even finish mugging



baking at izzie's 6 hours straight till morning,
WE WILL NEVER BAKE AGAIN AT HER PLACE SRSLY.
but i guess we had fun, doing icings and stuff (:


the product (:



this is freaking old, look at my skin colour,
i went 2 tones down for real ):
maybe this was exactly a year ago.


early this year w gladys




this is it, im doneee finally,
anw i cant wait for cousins to come back from hongkong this thurs!
miss them to bitssssss really.
ill upload their pics soon.
and this sat is aunts wedding,
im overjoyed, staying at sentosa's hotel till this sunday!
nails on wed/friday :D
but im still not sure if im going church this sunday :/
but i want to celebrate birthday w them ):


i just rmb i havent done my journal shit im so screwed.
i hope mike comes on time to help meeeee plsssss. gah.
i pray tmw at trg i wont suck, i wont panic, i wont stress or nervous,
ill be calm, let God handle it.
& i just hope i do my best and coach wont screw meeee.

hate all those freaking pt, run ard school ):
and im sad i cant make it for GHS ):
but i know they will all give their 110%


okay bye!

yay, finally done w new skin (:

love this girl! (: -random

so many times i just want to get away from this society.

a break from everyth else that leads to reality.

its really tiring like i just wish for a day i just dont need to think about all these things.

i need more civilisation.

and i just need to watch a movie.

that could explain how out of life im in right now.

sometimes i ask myself what am i doing this for.

im stressed pressured and discouraged.

in a period of uncertainty, i just need to hang on.

i pray that this will just only be a passing phrase, not eternity.

im doubtful but i heard my grandma said this,

if you dont believe yourself how can others believe you.

sometimes i find it so true but i still find myself yet again, not believing, lacking of confidence.

why am i so unsure, where is my drive, my motivation, my passion.

i need that fire. i feel so sian.